School

Well, I'm going back to school on the 28th of August. I'm pretty nervous, because I'll be taking on a full load of seven classes, plus a few really difficult classes. Here's the classes I'm taking and my thoughts:

AP English II (or Honors English II):

I got into this class automatically, I didn't have to take a test, because I had an A in AP Eng. I. Advanced Placement English II is considered to be one of the more difficult classes to take as a sophomore. Summer work included reading Mark Twain's The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, and Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck. Both were great books, I really enjoyed them, and I would recommend both for any avid reader. For Huck Finn I need to pick a quotation from each chapter and then explain why it represents what the chapter is about. The Mice and Men work is a bit more involved. I have to identify the symbolic images used in the story and explain them (both of which I am terrible at), and analyze the character development of the two main characters. I'm almost done with both assignments.
Teacher: Mrs. Dawson
Length: 2 semesters

Biology:

In my freshman year, I took Physical Science I, which is a one-semester class. Phy. Science I and II are the prerequisites for Biology. This is a class that I'm pretty worried about, considering that I have no idea what everyone else learned about in Phys. Sci. II. This class threatens to be more than challenging.
Possible teachers: Mr. Storm, Mrs. Pasquale
Length: 2 semesters

Art I:

At last, a class I'm actually looking forward to! Most student take Art I in their freshman year, but I took Basic Drawing instead. I'm glad I did, it was an awesome class, I learned a lot, and I was able to meet some new peoples. Back to Art I. While Basic Drawing was about drawing (gasp! what a surprise), Art I will encompass various techniques, principle of design, and color theory. Art I is a prerequisite for almost all other art classes.
Possible teachers: Mrs. Murphy, Mr. Anderson
Length: 2 semesters

Spanish I:

Spanish I is an introduction to the language. The class will involve writing, speaking, and listening. Spanish culture will also be incorporated into the curriculum. I'm not sure this class will be easy, but because of my history with Spanish-speaking, I think this will be a good class.
Teacher: Mrs. Godinez
Length: 2 semesters

Advanced Web Design:

I will be building and maintaining a site for a teacher, club, sport, or other school. Real world expreience is the idea. I'll get to use programs like Dreamweaver and Fireworks, and use other scripts besides HTML (Hyper-Text Markup Language), such as JavaScript. I took Web Design I last year and really enjoyed it. I was given an award for my outstanding performance (which really means that I built a cool-looking website with 25-pages instead of the required 3 pages). I'm thinking about being a Teachers Assistant for Web I in a couple years.
Teacher: Mr. Espinola
Length: 2 semesters

Algebra 2:

Math. What else is there to say? Next year is Pre-cal, and my senior year, Calculus.
Possible Teachers: Mrs. Knight, others

Phys. Ed:

I didn't take it last year, so I'll be taking it this year, and then we'll fill out a log that says I did so many hours of P.E. so that I can get credit for last year. Believe me, three ski trips of skiing all day, everyday, is a lot of exercise.
Length: 2 semesters


Right now I'm taking an online health class from Brigham Young University, to get credit for that class. I'm going to try to find a driver's ed class somewhere too. The only available driver's ed class is from the college here in town, and it's an online class. My parent would really like me to get more experience behind the wheel, so they want me to try to find a class in Reno that I'd only have to go to once a week or something. Personally, I think they're grasping at straws, but whatever. So long as an online class will qualify for a discount on insurance, I'm fine with it. And that's about it.

With love from your intellectually superior blogger,

Katy ;)

Cars

This weekend, my town is having an car show. People from everywhere have brought their old cars. Half of them don't drive them, they actually tow their perfectly good cars on a trailer. We entered our '69 Impala, and that's been fun. Brad and Pete have had a really fun time with it, they get to show off their car and tell the story of our family heirloom.

My favorite, by default, is our Impala, but my second favorite, by choice, is the Ford Mustang Mach 1. Check it out:

This car may look familiar to a few of my readers, and that's because Byron has one just like it. Ever been inside that car? It's pretty sweet. Anyway, that's about all that's going on.

Your favorite blogger who's even cooler than the Mach 1,

Katy

Nightmares

I had a terrible nightmare last night. Around 8 or 9, I was sitting in my bed drawing, and I fell asleep. I woke up 3 hours later, hot and sweaty, dry-mouthed and breathing hard. It was this really creepy, freaky scary dream. I've never had this happen to me before. I was actually afraid to go back to sleep. I guess I was pretty shaken.

I got up and wrote down what it was about, and then I prayed. I read a little bit of Psalms. I turned a few pages, and there was this verse that said, "Lord, protect me from my enemies, who plot to take my life." It made me feel better to know that God was there, watching out for me. So I got my dog and had him sleep in my bed, and then I went back to sleep. I am happy to say that I had no more nightmares. There was a weird dream in which I was running around in a commando suit, but that's another story...

Your Dreamcatcher,

Katy

I was listening to Superchick's "We all Fall" on the Last one Picked album, and I could really appreciate what they were saying. Because I've fallen. I've turned away and come back. I've failed. But God still loves those of us who fail. We can fall, but it doesn't change how God feels about us. And that is so reassuring.

We all Fall

we all fall sometimes

we all let ourselves down

sometimes there's nothing left

but to live with what's been done

and know you're not the only one who falls

we all fail sometimes

we all let someone down

sometimes there's nothing left

but to promise to ourselves

that next time we won't be the one to fail

i want to tell you you can go on

that beginnings come from ends

i still believe in you and so does God

He's the one who still believes in those who fail

He's the one who still believes in us who fall

Fires

It's been a whole year since I moved to Winnemucca. I still don't like it. It's as brown and dry and hot as ever, but I don't resent it so much. I would never consider living here permanently, but I think the next three years will be okay. Everyone told me that Winnemucca was beautiful in summer, that it really bloomed, but I think they're confused, because it looks the same. Not as bleak as winter- there are leaves on the trees- but it's still flat and sagebrushy.

Saturday night there was a huge lightning storm. No rain, which, being a Washingtonian, is a little strange, but there was just these huge cracks of lightning everywhere. Sometimes it was just a flickering light in the looming clouds, and other times it was a white jagged rip in the sky. Since our house is up on a hill, we could see everything really well. Then, I spotted a flickering orange light down amongst the lights of Winnemucca. Smoke began to obscure the flames. The lighting had struck a spot in the sagebrush, and a fire had sprung up. Before our eyes, the fire spread lightning-fast (if you'll pardon the expression). Soon it engulfed a large area. We saw the fire trucks heading in the direction of the smoke as fast as they could. They reached it pretty quickly, and in a matter of minutes, the fire was gone. It was a pretty amazing sight. Scary, but amazing, because it demonstrated the power and ferocity of such a fire.

Your slightly pyro blogger,

Katy

Revolutionaries by Bethany Dillon

Many have traveled this road before

I see their tracks in the dirt

But maybe I don’t agree

With where they are leading

And who am I, just a youth

But why has that become the excuse

A monotone voice

In my head saying

Dreaming all the time

It’s so foolish

Your flood of empty words

Will drown you in ruin

So we listen

Should we listen?

They shake their heads

As they drive away in the bandwagon

Didn’t feel like hitching a ride

Oh, but I’ll be fine

Some nights it’s hard to be alone

I want some kind of kinship

But the finish line

It drives me on

When they say

Dreaming all the time

It’s so foolish

Your flood of empty words

Will drown you in ruin

So we listen

Should we listen?

Come with me

They’ll call us revolutionaries

Come with me

They’ll call us revolutionaries

Revolutionaries

Revolutionaries

Dreaming all the time

It’s not foolish

Your flood of life giving words

They will refresh, they will refresh

Dreaming all the time

It’s not foolish

Your flood of life giving words

They will refresh

Should we listen?

Revolutionaries.

This is Your Life

Switchfoot's song, "This is Your Life", is an excellent song. And it brings to light an important point that many people miss in life.

You only get one chance-are you who you want to be?

Take a look at yourself right now. Are you the person you thought you'd be 2, 5, 10 years ago? Every once in awhile, you've just got to sit down and take an honest look in the mirror. You only get one shotat life. You can't go back and try again. What will you do? Will you be famous, or infamous? Will you go down in history? If so, what for? Will people remember you name, or the things you accomplished?

Be bold. Speak out, and speak up. Don't you dare sit down and shut up just because somebody doesn't like what you're saying. Stand up. Be passionate about your beliefs. If you have an opportunity, talk with someone. Give out smiles. Be alive, be happy with yourself, and where you are right now.

This is your life. Are you who you want to be?

This is a pretty funny video on YouTube. If you like Jon Stewart, then check it out. If you've never heard of Jon Steart, this is a must-see. Very funny.

Click here to watch Jon Stewart's take on President Bush.

Your absolutely favorite blogger, who loves the Daily Show,

Katy

Hmmm...

Well, unfortunately, my pledge to blog at least once every other day isn't working out quite as I'd planned. I'll try to work on that, and blog more often. I wonder if anyone is even reading this anymore, seeing as how I've haven't been writing in a long time.

This blog is like a journal, except that I'm terrible at keeping one. It takes me so long to write something down, that I usually just say forget it. But I can type so much faster than I write, that I can say everything I want to say pretty efficiently. Plus, I can never lose this. Notebooks, journals, and diaries are easily lost or misplaced. It would be pretty difficult to do so with this internet journal. I'll be able to look back in ten years, and say, "wow, I've come a long way."

Restart

In the last few months I've come to realize that I'm on a downward slope heading unstoppably, at 120 mph, toward a train, which is going to slam into me, and I'm going to crash. Hard. I've tried to turn the situation around. I've tried to regain control of my life, but it just keeps spiraling downward, faster and faster. Until last week I thought that crashing was inevitable. That there wasn't anything I could do to stop it. The train was just going to keep coming.

But I've changed my mind. I've made some pretty bad choices in these last four months. I turned my back on God, because I thought He had abandoned me. I never left my belief in God, just my faith in him. I tried to find my own way in the world. But I just became more and more lost in the darkness. I couldn't find the path, and I was reduced to wandering around in circles, looking for the right way to go, waiting for that train. No more. I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. I'm tired of being tired all the time. I'm tired of always having a poor self-image, and feeling worthless and alone every second of every day. I'm tired of being miserable. And I am so, so tired of being insecure and Godless.

Before I walked away, before I abandoned God, I felt secure and safe. I felt as though nothing could ever hurt me, and I didn't have to be afraid. This past year I've been increasingly stressed and insecure. There were days, far and few between to be sure, when I wasn't sure why I was still alive. Being dead inside, why wasn't my body dead as well? I've just been sitting on the train tracks, waiting to be hit. But now I realize that I'm not tied to the tracks, and I am capable of stepping off the tracks, and away from danger. The train is not inevitable. I felt trapped where I was, like I couldn't move, even if I had wanted to. I was too busy being miserable to realize that I'd given up trying to get away.

But no more and never again. I'm going to try to turn 180 degrees. Back to God, and away from hopelessness. I have to remember to look up, to keep my eyes on the goal, on God. I want my self back. I want to be me again; and the me I know is happy and optimistic, friendly and caring, passionate about things she believes in. This is who I want to be. And I am determined, that with God's help, I can do it. If you're reading this, and you're a Christian, whether you know me or not, will please pray for me? I think I'm in for a hard ride, full of a lot of spiritual warfare. Satan had me right where he wanted, and he'll fight hard to keep me there. The trouble is, I'll have to sit back and let God do the fighting for me. Anyway, thanks for listening.

Your blogger who's fighting for her life (figuritively, of course),

Katy

House, M.D.

I don't know if any of you have ever seen the show, "House", but it's an awesome show. Incredibly hilarious. Hugh Laurie says the funniest things. Check it out

Just as addictive is the WB's "Smallville" Tom Welling, Michael Rosenbaum, and Alison Mack make it all worthwhile. Good show -- watch it from the beginning though, because it gets complicated. Great fansite

Booklist

Here's a list of books that I've read lately:

The Man in the Iron Mask, by Alexander Dumas
Ender's Shadow, by Orson Scott Card
The Client, by John Grisham
The Runaway Jury, by John Grisham
Hart's Hope, by Orson Scott Card
The Tragedy of Romeo and Juliet, by W. Shakespeare


NOW READING:

The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, by Mark Twain

NEXT ON THE LIST:

Of Mice and men, by John Steinbeck

I'll continue to redo this list every once in awhile. I recommend all of these books, as they're amazing pieces of literature. Each of them is great for a different reason, though. The Man in the Iron Mask is a classic. Both of the John Grisham books are intriguing and they keep you guessing. Ender's Shadow is completely mind-blowing (read Ender's Game first, though), Hart's Hope is by Orson Scott Card, who is an amazing storyteller of science fiction and fantasy, and Romeo and Juliet is a great story, that, if you're intellectual and well-read already, you'll definitely enjoy.

9/11

Just in the last few months the full horror of the 9/11 tragedy has really hit me. I was 10 years old at the time, almost 11. Just before the event, I was in Texas, visiting my aunt and uncle. While I was there, I begged my parents to let me stay a few more days that planned, but they wouldn't let me. Two days after my flight back, four planes were hijacked. Two hit the World Trade Center, one flew into the Pentagon, and the other crashed into a field in Pennsylvania. I really didn't have any idea what was going on. My mom and dad gathered all of us kids in the living room and told us the jist of what had happened. They said that we might hear people talking about it, and that we didn't have to be scared. Not that I understood why I'd have reason to be. New York was a long way away, and I had no scale to measure the 2,986 dead. I didn't know about the bravery of the passengers of flight 93; I didn't know about the people who jumped to their deaths to escape the flames of the World Trade Center buildings; how could I know about the 9-11 calls, the frantic people trapped inside, who couldn't understand why no one came to save them; how could I know about the 400 firefighters who would die in the buildings' collapse? But it's hitting me now, and it makes me hurt inside.

This is a recorded 9-11 call from a woman named Melissa Doi. She was trapped in one of the World Trade Center buildings.

Melissa Doi: Oh my God, I'm on the 83rd floor! I’m on the 83rd floor!
9-11: Ma’am how ya doing?
MD: Is it… is it… are they going to be able to get somebody up here?
9-11: Well of course ma’am. We’re coming up for you.
MD: Well, There's no one here yet and the floor's completely engulfed. We are on the floor and we can't breathe and it's very, very, very hot.
9-11: I understand. You’ve got to be very, very careful… how they approach you, ok? Now you stay calm. How many people where you’re at right now?
MD: There’s like five people here with me. Everybody’s having trouble breathing, some people are worse.
9-11: Unconscious? Everybody awake? And its very hot there but there’s no fire there right?
MD: I can’t see because its too hot.
9-11: Very hot. No fire for now and no smoke right?
MD: Of course there’s smoke! There is smoke! I can’t breathe! I think there is fire because it’s very hot. It’s very hot everywhere on the floor.
9-11: I’m documenting what you’re saying ok? It’s very hot, you see no fire but you see smoke right?
MD: It’s very hot. I don’t see any air anymore. All I see is smoke. Please…
9-11: Listen. The call is in, I’m documenting…
MD: I'm going to die, aren't I?
9-11: No, no, no.
MD: I'm going to die.
9-11: Ma'am say your prayers.
MD: I’m going to die.
9-11: You have to think positive because you got to help each other off the floor.
MD: I’m going to die. I know I’m going to die.
9-11: Stay calm, stay calm, stay calm. You’re doing a good job.
MD: Please God. No. It’s so hot. I’m burning up.
(9-11 operator talks on radio)
MD: Wait, wait, wait! We hear voices! Hello! Help!
9-11: Hello ma’am?
MD: Help!
9-11: Stay calm, stay calm. Just don’t move.
MD: Oh my God. Find out if there's anybody here on the 83rd floor.
9-11: Ma'am stay on the phone with me.
MD: Find out if there's anyone on the 83rd floor because we thought we heard somebody.
9-11: Ma'am I already notified the lieutenant, ok? I already notified the lieutenant that there’s five people on the 83rd floor right? Very hot and smoky so they won’t overlook you, ok dear?
MD: Can you... can you stay on the line with me please?
9-11: Yes ma’am.
MD: I feel like I'm dying… they’re here?
9-11: Are they inside with you yet, dear?
MD: No.
9-11: Ok, Stay calm.
MD: Can you find out where they are?
9-11: Ma’am, stay calm until they get inside.
(9-11 operator talks on radio and tape ends. At the end of her call, Melissa can be heard yelling, "Help! Help!")

This is a tribute to those who died in the September 11 attacks; to the courageous efforts of those aboard Flight 93; and to those who are bravely carrying on after the meaningless death of their loved ones.

The Higher Standard

Here's something I don't believe in: boyfriends. Let me ask you something. What's the point? I mean, it's not like you're evil or something if you have guy friends, I do. But why do you need a boyfriend? The truth is, you don't.
An adult friend of mine believes that she needs a man to complete her. That without a male someone in her life, everything will collapse. She is almost helpless without this guy figure. She has to get a new one if the old one leaves, or she leaves him, or something happens and they split. That's not right. Not right at all. God didn't make us that way. We're built to want companionship, to desire a partner of the opposite sex, but that partner is supposed to stay with you for life, not just till next week, or month, or year.
God wired us to search Him out. He wants us to be happy, he gave us free will. But I promise you, happiness doesn't come from physical love. People have a lot of ideas about what love is, and most of them are a lie. Society tells us to get a boyfriend, to dress a certain way, to speak, act, and walk in certain ways. But here's the catch: Society never actually says anything to your face.
It's whispered in your ear, and gobbled up through your eyes. No one has ever actually told me, "get a boyfriend," but the urge to be like everyone else is so strong. We must resist this thing that has been titled, "society". Dating is for those mature enough for marriage, not just anyone wanting to practice kissing.
In Romans 2:2 it says, "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind." We have been set free, we don't have to conform anymore. You don't have to give in to the silent visual messages being poured into your brain. Resist. Don't be a candle under a basket. Let your light shine. Spread God's Truth.
Ephesians 6:12 "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Our struggle is not against flesh and blood. It's within. I'm not going to have a fist fight with myself, but there is always an internal battle going on. I have to constantly remind myself that I can't hold myself to this dark world's standards. I am held to something much higher.
1 John 2:16 "For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world." God knows us, okay? He made us, he understands how our minds work, and He gave us His Word to guide us. The cravings of sin are not for us. We are held to a higher standard. We cannot be distracted by lust. We are held to a higher standard. Do not give in to pride. We are held to a higher standard.
1 Corinthians 3:3 - "You are still worldly. For since there is jealousy and quarreling among you, are you not worldly? Are you not acting like mere men?" We are not, under any circumstances, "mere men." The Holy Spirit is in us. We shouldn't be worldly, we shouldn't be conformists, we don't need to put on a performance for society.
When I see girls fighting over a guy, I am disappointed. When I see a couple kissing, etcetera, I'm saddened. Sure, it feels great. Yeah, he says nice things to you, about you, but what are you giving yourself away for? Can you truthfully see yourself living the rest of your life with your boyfriend right now? Do you think he sees it the same way you do? Just think about that for a minute.
What is the use of having a boyfriend, and giving your heart away, only to have it painfully ripped to shreds and thrown back in your face? I've seen girls go through a breakup. My friends have gone through breakups, and it's just not fair. They are in so much pain. Inside, they hurt, they ache, and they don't understand why he was so cruel, to have wounded them so deeply. After having seen the pain in so many friends' eyes, I just don't understand the point. There's definitely a lure. As humans, our brains are wired to start to notice those of the opposite sex right now, it's the way we are. But that doesn't mean we have to give in.
We are held to a higher standard, ladies and gentlemen, God's. It really is okay to not have a boyfriend. It is okay to be different. It is okay to not look or dress or act or walk or talk like everyone else. If your are such a person, someone who is different, then I applaud you, I look up to you.





P.S. I am not attempting to look down on those who have a boyfriend. My message is that you don't have to have one. You don't have to become part of the wallpaper, part of the weave, part of the grain, part of the pattern.