Late Night Thoughts

I feel that I must write poems

and sweep broad strokes of paint

and sleep is just so boring

when I am composing

these kinds of paintings

in my head

besides

this bed is cold

and

I don't sleep well alone

I have not written anything in...way too long. It's strange.

I think it’s because when I write, I write from a very personal place.

And so sometimes I don’t know what to say, or how to say it, because sometimes feelings don’t have a name

And sometimes even if they do have a name, I am afraid to name them, or write them down, because then they have to be real and tangible. They aren’t feelings anymore, they’re words.

I really need to write.

Nothing Left Unsaid

If you died tomorrow, would you be happy with today?
If I'd be gone tomorrow is there something else you'd say?
If the world were ending would you finally change?
If destiny existed, would you look my way?

There's so many "ifs" in a life like this
So many "maybes" in a world gone crazy
While it's all goin' down and you're all runnin' round
It's easy to forget that this is life and you're livin' it
Don't take it for granted, don't say you'll do it later
Don't coast by when you could be doin' greater things
Scream at the rain, and laugh at the lightning
Never give up and find a fight worth fighting
Say "I love you" to the ones you love
You don't want to wonder if you said it enough
Kiss like you mean it, and cry all the harder
Whatever you do know that once you're dead
There's no one to say the things you left unsaid


It's easy to say you'll do it on some other day
Easy to run instead of trying to be brave
But if you had to tell the truth, what would you say?
If you had the chance, would you show your face?

Chorus


What if you could know the day you'd die?
Would you confess everything to Jesus Christ?
Do you think you won't be crying at the end of your life
over regrets you can't forget even though you tried?

Chorus


Well there was ice on the road of my last dark night
and last I remember there were bright headlights
I head the crunch of the metal and a piercing cry
I saw the blood and knew it was mine
I took my last breath under a starry night
And the life shuddered out of me as I died
As I got cold, I saw my life
And all I could think was that I wouldn't have another try

There were so many "ifs" in the life I missed
So many "maybes" in a world gone crazy
While it was all goin' down and I was all runnin' 'round
It was easy to forget that that was life and I was missin' it
I took it for granted, I said I'd do it later
I coasted by when I coulda been doin' greater things
So scream at the rain and laugh at the lightning
Never give up and find a fight worth fighting 
I didn't say "I love you" to the ones I loved
And now I wonder if I said it enough
Oh kiss like you mean it, and cry all the harder
Search the stars when your heart starts to wander
But listen to me because now I'm dead
and there's no one to say the things I left unsaid