Trust?

Well here I am in Winnemucca. Everything is going okay. Right now I wouldn't say that I'm struggling with my faith in God, but I think that God is really testing my faith. I'm not having doubts, but I'm having feelings of aloneness you know? I think that God is trying to tell me that I really need to rely on Him. I just need to get down on my knees and plead with God again to just take every part of me and make me whole again. I think He's trying to tell me that the only way I can ever again feel right, feel good, feel whole, be changed, be myself again, I'm going to have to just keep coming back and saying, "Help me." I think that lately I haven't been trusting God as much as I should. It's made me more irritable and I think my siblings are totally fed up with me. I need to trust Him to take care of me. I need to remember that God has plans for me to prosper, to grow, to come to know Him more, not schemes to hurt me. I've got to trust in Him that everything is going to be okay. I've gotta lean on Him to take me through the day. Can I do it? I think...I think that just maybe if I try and if I pray real hard, God will get me through. But listen, if you're a praying prayer warrior Christian, pray for me okay? This has been- this is really hard. I know I can't do it by myself, I need God's help, but...will you pray for me too?

Your not-so-confident-but-working-on-it blogger,

Katy

Questions, questions from Winnemucca

How am I to look to the future when my heart lingers behind? My heart and soul are still very much in Washington. This new land is so different from the home that I left. There are no vast fields of evergreen trees, there is only an endless brown wasteland where scrub bushes are the only things that grow. No cool breezes come to refresh. There is only hot, humid, stale air that is hard to breathe. There is no "home" to come home to. There is only a tiny hotel room packed with all four of us kids and our "essentials''. How can I call this new place home? Do I even want to? These are questions that I do not want to know the answers to. You know what? Deep down in my heart, I am so attatched to Washington, I love my home so much, that I'm not ready to replace it with Winnemucca. I'm not ready to get used to breathing hot, humid air, I don't want to live amidst a wasteland where the only thing to break the horizon is not a tree, but power lines and casinos. Can I do it? Can I make it through? I know I will be changed at the end of this journey, but will I be better or will I be worse? And most importantly, at the end of this journey, where will I be?
Your Soul-Prying Blogger,

Katy

Bittersweet

Today is my last day in Hawaii. It's 11:00 now, and we check out at noon. Then our plane will leave at midnight tonight. It's five and a half hours to California and then a one hour layover or so and then an hour and a half back to Washington. Then we'll pick up our car from the hotel, we'll pick up our dog, our trunks with the rest of our belongings that have to last us for a month and a half, and we're going to start driving down to Winnemucca. We aren't going to stop for sleep until Oregon. Talk about a long day! Well, this'll be the last post for a little while, so this is me, your beloved blogger who's rather sad and slightly depressed about moving to Nevada and living in a hotel for so long,

Katy

Favorite Movies

Okay, let's start on a list of my favorite movies! Right now this will just be a mostly random, but I'll probably add to it and try to put it in order sometime too.

1) The Lord of the Rings trilogy this movie is so awesome! The acting, the special effects, everything!!! Aragorn is definitely my favorite.

2) The Passion of the Christ - this movie made me cry because it was so sad. This movie really spoke to my heart when I watched it. To actually see what Jesus went thru for us was really moving.

3) Gladiator - This is such an awesome movie! Russell Crowe is a great actor and everything about this movie is so incredible. The story, the plot, the characters...

4) Finding Nemo - I love this movie because it's so hilarious! Dory is so my favorite!

5) The Last Samurai - again, this movie is a tear-jerker, & who could resist Tom Cruise?

6) Pirates of the Carribbean - A great story, awesome actors -and actresses- and helloooo! Orlando Bloom and Johnny Depp in the same movie!!! You gotta luv Captain Jack!

7) Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Hellooo! It's Johnny Depp! And he's hilarious!!! This is a total must-see! By the way, if you haven't read the book, it's even better than the movie! hmm...maybe that'll be my next list!

Vacationing in Hawaii

Well, my impression of Hawaii so far has been...well, what can I say? Hawaii is awesome! I do have to say that it kinda bugs me that this Hawaii trip is sort of like my parents trying to bribe us into liking Winnemucca, Nevada, but all in all, Hawaii is pretty cool! I've been snorkeling several times, I bought myself a t shirt and a sarong/wrap, and I found some pretty cool shells too. I even took a free scuba lesson this morning in the pool! The hotel is pretty nice and I think I'm getting some great pictures with my disposable camera. The sunsets here are breathtaking, the palm trees are tall and swaying, and the water is amazing. A different color everyday, different things happening on it everyday, boats, parasailing, scuba divers, the fish come in all shapes and sizes and the night swimming is a lot of fun. well, friends, family, and whoever else might be reading this, Hawaii is very awesome!!!

So this is your slightly tanned and somewhat sunburned blogger,

Katy